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The iPhone Air is Apple's holy grail of design. What was once a small chamfered rectangle is now a device with refined, pillowed curves. In a sea of thick, 6.9" behemoths, the Air is a device that promises something new: simplicity.

At least, you *think* that's what it's promising. If you hold this device, you can't help but assign an emotional weight to its lightness. Could this device finally be *the* minimalist phone? Sadly, this is the incongruence: it feels like less, *so why isn't it?*

If your mission is to escape the trenches of Twitter, Instagram, TikTok, or any other infinite scrolling hell, then it's easy to see why the promise of a simpler phone will lead you to a simpler life. The phone cannot change your habits. The demon is yourself. 

The iPhone Air promises a lightness, but when it's in my pocket, I'm carrying an immense weight. Is it really the phone?


This was written one year ago, after owning the iPhone Air for a few weeks. A year later, my thoughts are the same.

Addiction is in the Air

My name is Mikail. I’m 24 and I was diagnosed with *hearing loss* in my right ear in November, 2024. My ear drum is ruptured, and the three tiny bones in the ear that transfer sound — the auditory ossicles — are deteriorating. I have about 40 decibels of hearing loss in my right ear, which for me means that conversation is audible, but hardly intelligible. Thankfully my left ear still works fine. I am scheduled for a surgery to receive a prosthetic replacement for these auditory ossicles. This procedure may restore some of my hearing. At the very least, my hearing loss will stop advancing.

On October 28, 2024, Apple released an FDA-approved Hearing Aid feature among others, which I’ve used every day since. In fact, the Apple Hearing Test is how I discovered the early stages of my hearing loss. I immediately made a doctor’s appointment which led us to today where I await surgery.

Incredibly, I have only lived in a world with hearing loss and Apple’s Hearing Aid feature. I took my first hearing test with my AirPods on October 28, the day Apple released the feature. I take these tests regularly to utilize two key features: Hearing Aid and Media Assist.

The Hearing Aid does exactly what you think, boosting volume in my right ear. Media Assist adjusts the audio equalization for both ears. For me, I get a boost in the right ear. With this feature on, it’s like my hearing loss disappears. Both of these features compensate for the various levels of hearing loss across the audio spectrum. It is not simply a boost in volume.

This is a feature that everyone involved should feel immense pride in putting to market. I am constantly in awe that these headphones that I already owned would end up being truly indispensable.

As a quick aside, I actually made a [little website](https://hearing-loss.mikailkraft.com/) as an assignment for a hearing science class I took in 2020. It’s funny how things come around again.

![](/images/SCR-20250410-jryu.png)<small>My most up-to-date audiogram from my audiologist</small>

Back in 2021, I owned AirPods Max, gifted to me by my then-girlfriend. What a gift. I loved those headphones to an unreasonable degree. The noise cancelling made the world feel still. The heft of them was comforting and not burdensome, an unpopular experience. They sounded great, too. I loved them. Loved. They were one of the first things to go when we wanted a little extra cash after buying our first house.

So, I of course bought them again after seeing the new wired and USB-C lossless features because, well, I love AirPods Max irrationally.

To rationalize my fondness, I started researching hearing accessibility features that were available on AirPods Max. Apple calls these *Headphone Accommodations.* I discovered that just like on AirPods Pro 2, I could upload an audiogram *—* the results of my hearing test — and have audio equalized on AirPods Max. This was perfect. I made sure I had a copy of my audiogram and went through the steps listed on [this forum post](https://forum.hearingtracker.com/t/apple-airpods-max-or-pro-let-you-add-your-audiogram-then-correct-for-it/61380). Apple’s support article can be found [here](https://support.apple.com/guide/airpods/set-headphone-accommodations-devcd05671ab/web). When I opened the Headphone Accommodations setting, every feature was there but one: the option to upload my audiogram. It was gone. Why?

Apple removed this feature in iOS 18.1. Axed. An accessibility feature from 2020 made for most Apple and Beats-branded headphones has been made exclusive to AirPods Pro 2.

I’d been so accustomed to my AirPods Pro’s Media Assist feature that, when I put on my AirPods Max for the first time, I cried. It’s like I lost my hearing for a second time. I knew that sound was coming out of the right headphone, but I could not hear it. I don’t wear headphones while I’m teaching, so I know what my life is like with hearing loss, yet when I put on headphones, there’s an expectation I’ve set for myself that everything goes back to normal.

Because my hearing loss is unilateral, my only option is to pan the audio to the right. Even so, my hearing loss is not *quite* a flat 40 decibels, so sound in my right ear seems slightly off. So, that’s my current solution. To compensate for the reduction in volume in my functioning left ear, I just turn the volume up. It’s serviceable.

![](/images/SCR-20250410-jzqy.png)<small>This is the balance I’m trying right now.</small>

Apple, please add this feature back. If not to continue making the world more accessible to everyone, but to avoid undoing the progress you made five years ago when you first solved this problem. You are a leader in accessibility. Don’t leave other devices behind because they’re not FDA-approved hearing aids. I’ve learned that these accessibility features are vital. Let us hear again, like we could before October 28.


Removing accessibility for the heck of it, I guess?

Hearing Loss and AirPods


I have set a timer for 20 minutes. I am currently sitting on the "grass" in my classroom, a section of the room where I have laid down about 200 square feet of turf for students to use daily. The past 2 weeks have been tough. I'm introspecting the value that technology brings to my life while also navigating how to teach Computer Science to 6-year-olds. And 12-year-olds who act like 6-year-olds. I have had the pleasure to formulate lessons that show the awe and power that electronics bring to us every day. The fact that a digital laser projector has millions of tiny mirrors that orchestrate an image derived from a red, green, and blue laser is just... incredible. What a tool it is! My board has a module to give it touchscreen functionality while still functioning as a white board. That makes my life easier. 

What does *not* make my life easier is my phone. My phone can be one of the greatest affectors of my mood. The source of my hate, sadness, and fear all comes from one incredible, yet stupid app called... Twitter. It consumed me in ways I, at the time, could not identify as being unhealthy. I just pulled out my phone, opened the app, and read people's dumb and public thoughts and quickly formed my own opinions based on that information. 

Using Twitter is not the issue, though. The issue is pulling it out when waiting in line, at stoplights, while actively (erm, passively) using another device, while eating dinner, while—I could keep going. From the game Zero Wing that brought us the quote *All your base are belong to us* also delivered us a very powerful message: **Make your time**

Our time—my time—is valuable. I have work, chores, a family, and my own interests that I need to tend to daily, like a cultivar; my life's greatest qualities should blossom. I'm not here to grow as many spuds as possible to stave off hunger. No. I'm here to plant and grow a beautiful bonsai, small and beautiful. 

Distractions will prevent the bonsai from revealing its truest, perfect form. Sitting idly hoping for a screen to produce something that gives my life meaning, or to be the meaning itself will surely cause the bonsai to wilt. it might not even sprout. 

One day at a time, I will shape my bonsai. Day-to-day, nobody may see a change in the tree despite all effort poured into it, but in the end, the bonsai will flourish, and I will finally sit back in awe. 

30 seconds left on the clock.

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A reflection on a life-long chase for the perfect consumption of technology.

Digitalia


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Addiction is in the Air

Hearing Loss and AirPods

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